No practice

For a couple of months now i have not been able to practice in my house. My cousin is living with me now and it got in the way of my practice time. Not being able to practice is busting my chops . I have so much i wanna work on but i cant. i wish that it was like old time like when i could go home and just start working out. i m being held back so the times when i play thats like my practice time . i spend time just playing snare or on my pillow . but one day i will be able to practice with no interruptions and no one in the way

the worst valentines day of my life

Today sucks im with out a valentine and with out my girlfriend. Unforunately we broke up last week cause of a few disagreements we were having . Now i am spending this valentines day alone wishing we was able to work things out . she is away in school and we are both miserable . she is spending valentine day with her mom . but when she come home we are going to go out and talk and try to work things out. It is really crazy because we love each other and she is my heart this is the first and the last time this will ever happen

Just Some Things Musicians Deal With

being a musicians is very stressful. Especially when u have a great deal of things u have to work on. You have to live your life and also find the time to put into your craft. Everyday something new is brought to the table as far as tryin to learn . So many people have ideas that they bring to the table and if you find it meaningful to learn you will have to give ur self time to learn it. Being in relationships can sometime get in the way of being a successful musician . I say this because sometime your mate may not always want you to practice unless he or she is understanding. Sometimes they may want to spend quality time with each other but you may have to go do a gig or what ever you have to do you are obligated to do so. This can cause a drought because you will began to think that u do not have the suppot needed. Sometimes its hard to find someone who will support you in what you want to do. So i say all of that to say this if you want to be in a relationship and you are a musician make sure your mate is understanding and supportive and also make sure that you also give her/ him time so that the relationship can be leveled

Wishing this pain would go away

Pain comes along side of being a musician usually pain would help to you want to play more but sometime we find our selves hurting so much that it distracts you from playing. Pain can go as far as people throwing dirt on your name, people close to you turning on you, or even death. As for me death is what distracts me, i usually want to play but for some strange reason my body my mind,my spirit,my heart and my soul is not up to it. You would think after being in so much pain emotionally i would want to play but i just cant. For example just this past monday my grandmother died oh man am i dreadfully hurting. At a time such as this i was thinking to myself wow maybe if i play i can relieve my hurt, so not the truth.
As i sat on the drumkit i felt good cause i was excited to play but when i began to play i felt uncomfortable , i was not into it at all i was so distracted about the fact that i lost my grandmother i just could not get it together. i tried to learn things and learn but i could not get myself into playing right now it is so much agony in me that playing is the last thought on my mind i wish this pain would go away so that i can play with out me being hurt